It's on Jesse's laptop. Little brother that I never see was helpful today. Am at parent's house. Dot, the cat who likes everyone who will pet him has made me a little sad about leaving my cat with grandma. Grandma had me order my christmas present with her credit card today, so I know what I'm getting. Which is fine. Mom wants a list of the stuff I want. Which is cooler. I think I'll make that list now. Also, need to get to Nelsonville pretty soon so I can put the rent check in the rent box. Making a list now. See you later, Livejournal!

At least the world where my kitty is. I had to bring her to my granny's house to stay in her basement so the fleas won't eat anyone. That's where I am now. Friday's payday. You know what that means, right. NEW UNDERWEAR!!! the nice comfy kind. I'll tell you about it when I get them. In the meantime, this keyboard sucks a big one, so I'm gonna end this here today. See ya Livejournal!!

It really has. That will happen when you don't have your own computer. Work has been going well. The manager called me to take over two shifts in one week. I can't really tell if that's because they like me in there, or if everyone else said no. Oh well, it's extra hours, which means extra money, so I'm not going to complain. Working tonight in men's. I have never worked there before, so I hope I don't stress myself out trying to get everything done. I was working on Sunday by myself, and it was awful. I was trying to straighten a table, while keeping the fitting room clean, and people kept taking more and more in! It felt like hell. But I handled it, and I managed to not take out my stress on any customers, so it turned out ok. School is coming to a close, and I still owe the school money, and I still have to get my license renewed. Kinda stressing about both of those things, but if I just go do it, it will turn out fine. The hairdryer is calling me, and I have to get to class. I'll see you later Livejournal. I come back sooner next time.

and it is SO GOOD!! Today, Julie, Bryan and I went to the pub to have beer cheese soup. It was so good. And so cheesy. So, there is a birthday shuffle going on for me the Friday after my birthday. We're all gonna go have a drink at the different bars of Malta and McConnelsville. It may be fun. We'll wait and see. I also work this week. About 25 hours if I'm not mistaken. That's a good amount of money for me, since I haven't worked in over a year. The job isn't too bad. It's pretty much cleaning out the dressing rooms, putting that back on the racks, and knowing how to use the register. All in all, not very brain intensive, but not sit on my ass and get paid for nothing. So, at least I'll feel like I earn my wage. Can't say school is going that well. Theater history is going good. Foundations of math is ok, I just can't wrap my head around proof. Stats and probability would be ok if I'd just make myself do the assigned problems that I don't have to turn in, but I don't feel any urgency to do it until right before a test, and then I'm cramming to get everything in my head in time, and then I feel overwhelmed in the middle, so I stop. Not good, but at least I know what my problem is. Same situation with calculus. I'm actually doing better than before, because I've been working all this week, but I should do the work when it's assigned. I just don't feel the pressure to do it because they don't collect it. Arrggh college and the lax homework standards!!!

Wow, a real entry!

just read it this morning at like 1 am. In my opinion, RIZA CANNOT DIE!!! She may though, as this is only my opinion and Arakawa-sensei may have different ideas. I know I haven't posted any real posts for a while, but I don't think anythings really been post worthy. Maybe in another few days

So I went to youtube to watch some OHSHC because it's not on funimation anymore. Sadness. But if I wanna watch it, I have to sit through internet commercials! I get enough of those on regular tv. Maybe more later. Just had to vent.

So, I got the job at elder beerman. woot! I go in for training next week, then actually start working the week after that. That means not getting paid for at least 3 weeks. I need money now. It sucks so bad. I know that the checking of grandmother's needs to be built up, but I need this, and I am stressing beyond belief. I dont' know if I'll be able to make it. Yes I will make it. I make myself make it. I just don't know what I'm gonna do for the time being. I have no food, and no money to pay bills or buy food. I just hope nothing else gets shut off. Yeah, I have no internet at my apartment. The rent is paid, though. I need to start working soon. I will be, so that's good. I just don't know what kind of hours I'll be working, so I dont' know what my check will be like, and I don't know what kind of time I'll have for my school work, which I need to buckle down and do. I'm just having a bad start of the month. It's actually been a bad few weeks on the money end. I...just don't know how it's going to work out. Both of us should have been job hunting a long time ago. We were actually, but nothing came of it till now, and I'm happy it did, but I just need to get my bills paid this month, and then SAVE SAVE SAVE the money I get from the job. Save for a computer and for savings. I hope Bryan finds a job, too. That would help out so much, and we'd both get to meet new people and make friends, and go out and have a good time on our own dime. I hope it works out. I want it to so bad.

So, my computer shit itself! I don't know if it's completely gone yet, but I'm gonna assume it is. I'm gonna take it somewhere to get a diagnosis, but Bryan thinks it's the motherboard, which would mean about $400 to fix. It's a 3 year old laptop, and that's not really worth it. If it is the motherboard, I'm just gonna start saving up to get a new one. It's possible for me to do that now because I may have a job. I had an interview at Elder Beerman yesterday, and I go back for a second on Wednesday at 2:30. I really hope I get it because lia sophia kinda went in the shitter. Oh well... I can be self sufficient now. That will mean needing less from grandma every month. And if we could get any other leads on who's hiring at other places, maybe we could get Bryan a job too. that would be so great. After that, we'd probably be completely independent of other people for money. I hope that day comes soon. All of my savings is almost gone and if we were completely self sufficient, grandma would still insist on giving me money, so I could save that. I want this all to happen. I also want to be able to pass math263b. That would be super too. I think I'm gonna start being proactive with the homework, and going to SI sessions. It really needs to happen. The only thing about all this is that I won't have all the free time I'm used to, but you have to give some things up to have other things. Want. A. Job. That isn't direct sales. That I know I'm gonna get paid every week. That I can approximate what is coming to me. So I can worry less. I hope this all works out. I'm sure you'll be at least 3rd in the line of people who know how it works out, LJ. I guess that's it for today.

So, week 2 of school is done. I have plenty of homework for the weekend. Part of that is Matlab. I hate matlab with the fire of a thousand suns. It's an evil program that uses not natural language, and it's hard to use. Oh well. I have to and I will. I also have an apartment that needs a good cleaning. SO MANY DIRTY DISHES! Lots of clothes to put away, too. I'll get it done though! Need to get a good start. Also need to make a trip to Pennsville. I wanna, and I left clothes there when I left from my week of being home. I miss my clothes, mostly because I don't have a whole lot that fit. Also, need a job, or lia sophia bookings. Either would be nice. Gonna go make some progress. That's the plan, anyway. See you next time.

This weekend, I went home! home as in the place where my bed is. My room. My squeeky small bed. It was so great. I love it here. I can be as stupid as I want, do whatever I want, and nothing is expected of me, and when I do something, it's met with thanks and appreciation, not silence. I felt like I was a kid again. I even woke up to breakfast that was super good that I didn't have to work for. It's been nice. The only thing that sucks about it is that I have to go back to my apartment alone to go to school this week. I'll be there, only me and Pepper, for four nights. Maybe I'll make some new friends and hang out with them in the afternoons. I just hope I don't go crazy. I'm not really looking forward to it. The new quarter is a welcomed change though. I love learning and I'm really looking forward to new stuff. Not at 8 am though, but what can you do? I'd say that this entry is about as jumbled as my brain. I feel like I'm jumping everywhere. In other news, Saturday night I drank the most I ever have in one evening, ever. I was super giddy. Then I didn't sleep so well, but I made up for it today. So, let's see what this new chapter in an old venture holds for me.

It starts on Tuesday. I don't know if I'm really ready. It will be a good thing though, and I know that. I'll get to meet new people, and maybe get some new business. I hope for both. I also hope I can get back into the swing of hard deadlines. Been cleaning the apartment all day. I'm almost finished! This will be the first time since we moved in that EVERYTHING has been clean at the same time. I'm a little excited. not much though.

So, today my day started off with a trip to walmart to find me a bra that actually fits so I can be supported. Well those bastards don't have anything for people who aren't a "normal" size. I don't know how uncommon a 36DD is, but I mean, come on! This is a college town, which means there are probably girlys with even less common sizes than me, who are gonna need a bra on the cheap! (well, at least cheaper than VS) After a ride home empty-handed, we got a call from elterriblefizzy and went to hang out with her. We went and ate dinner at Ruby Tuesday, and then went to hang out at her new place with Heather. At 2 am we decided it was time to go home, and here I am. Overall, a good day! Team training in z-ville tomorrow. Maybe I'll go to VS and get some much needed support.

So, I've been in the kitchen trying new things! I am going to be trying out the recipes from Personal Trainer: Cooking. I'll let you know how those go. But tonight I made chocolate pudding from scratch. It's so good. The only thing wrong with it was the recipe author. Just so you know, I think flour is the worst thickener there is. Not that it doesn't work at all, it's just too slow for me. This person used it in their pudding recipe, but I didn't keep it that way. I used cornstarch, and I think it turned out thicker than it would have. It was faster, anyway. I'm out. Bye!

I've now got the new LiveJournal Messenger. My Windows Live ID is hyacnithspark@livejournal.com. Sign up now and we can chat!

So, I decided that I wanted to make mac and cheese ds style! It's pretty good. The only thing wrong with it is the sauce is really sticky, but that's my fault, as I used sharp cheddar instead of mild. All in all, I can say I will know better next time.

So I made curried chicken and vegetables tonight. It was super good. I didn't think I'd like it to much, but it was good! I may make it again.

Before I read them, I thought the Harry Potter books were the dumbest thing on the earth. I read the first 3 before goblet of fire was published, and I was hooked. After that I went to the midnight parties for the final 3. I don't know why I didn't do it for gof, but maybe they weren't doing it then. I don't really know. Those stories have become a huge part of my consciousness. I find myself thinking about all the connections made from the last books all the way back to the first. Like how Grindelwald went from a factoid to a major factor in the story. It just amazes me how someone can write things now with the intention of turning it into something HUGE in the coming stories. I'll stop marveling about JK Rowling now. I also have to say that before I started to read manga, I thought it was a stupid thing, but now all of the volumes I read invade my thoughts as well. Now that I think about it, everything has a profound impact on my head. It's kinda hard to think about, the fact that I'm 20 years old, and still growing on the inside.

It's amazing how much you don't have to spend to keep a kitty happy. all you should have to shell out cash for is food and litter. cats will be happy with the ring from the milk jug, foam from a swimsuit top, thread spools that are no more. I love my kitty!

helping with vbs. I'm the snack lady. so I get 20 kids all at one time. not cool. gar. people make me angry.

yay!!! I GOT THE MOOD THEME TO WORK!! YAY now you get to look at ed's face everytime you look at my journal!